classic, xoxo

Today is the day. I would express all my feelings that is stuck inside me all this while.
I ain't feeling that jubilant as i was supposed to be all this while. It's not that obvious cause i keep
it by myself since early this week. I ain't talk to anybody about this .
Not even to my hubby nor Best friend. I felt that it is safe to keep this to myself but i'am wrong.
I felt useless , annoyed , angry and hostile. I voiced some of it out today. But i ain't feeling too good
now days. Nobody would understand me truly when i'am in mood-swings. Trust me , nobody.
I know myself pretty well, mind you peoples. Don't judge me.I hate to be judged , compared.
Enough of long-winded essays. Firstly to this bitch whom i damn, since the day i know you, get a life ok ? Get a preety way better life than anyone out there. Stop being a bustard in the school.
Stop making stories about people when it is not true. Seriously speaking , you have your story well-rehearsed eh girl. First you denied vehemently , then you admit blushingly. You lied gliby sucker. To be frank eh , actually i hate you since Day 1. You talk bad behind me . Eh , you think others can't tell me the truth is it ? You're way too GOOD! I tell ya that. Too good at pretending & in terms of making fake stories. You talked bad about my boyfie you think i don't know ? Bodo nyer cibai! I know everything already ok . Now , everyone in the school hate you. Yes , it's TRUE! And thanked god for the revenged you get that day. I didnt speak a word cause i don't want you to get hurt further. I just don;t take it to heart. Talk as much as you want about me, or maybe my boyfie ? Judge your boyfie first before judging mine's . I think mine's is much more better than yours ok ? Ok , this for you . Go get a way better life eh sucker!

Secondly , to that attitude teacher! You too go get a life. Once , you were our favorite teacher , but now , you're a LOUSY tcher! You ignored us as if we are invisible. You get mad at us for no reasons. Are you sick in the mind? Are are you having a conflict with your hunny bunny boo-boo again. EWW* Stop looking at us as if we were going to help you in your relationship. As if asshole.You made a distasteful face yesterday. You ignored us as if we are invisible.You layan the boys only.Eh , hello our maths common test is just the day after tomorrow , that is today. We even asked you for revision papers and you said later. But did you give us the revision paper in the end? No! You did not. You were happily mind-ing your own business with those boys! What kind of a teacher are you? I rely , depend so much on you from the start but in the end , you showed us a sulky face in return. I seriously cannot hide my anger yesterday. Sorry if i bang the tables or what so ever your property. You deserved this teacher. An ungrateful teacher!
I just spat out my words to miss atikah. Hell , what i care if she go tell ms siti what i had said. I seriously don't give a damn ok ? And i seriously don't care anymore. I had enough of nonsense .
And hell ya mercu. My common test is this week and where's the mendaki tuition you promised to give me ? No tuition for science and english ? And somemore you banned us from comming.
Eh , you guys have no sense of education eh . I really really have enough ok . I'am deeply annoyed!

Thirdly, 3 months yesterday and no wish from him.A 3 silence month is it? And today still have the cheeks to ask me to go his house. " i miss you so much " he says. So? If you miss me so much why not you come down here to meet me ? Why should i travel all the way there when i sometimes get nothing in return. Isint it a waste ? A waste or time! Yah , yah i miss you also like hell boyfie since the day you went Malaysia. Ok , i admit we have not meet for sometimes but don't you understand me ? I 've got a test to study tomorrow and i 'am not focus at all! As i get mad at you , you complained and don't want to admit it . Ok laa fine! I'am in the wrong! I'am always wrong right?! You are always rightt! I'am not perfect kan ? I'am stupid , bodo , kental , unreasonable , un approachable I'AM NOTHING RIGHTTT?! I'am USELESS , i know. So , just fucked off me. All you know is to force me here and there. I'am not your slave ok BOYFRIEND!

Things really made me pissed off. Everyday i can say that! Today , maths common test just sucks big time ok ? The paper is like soooo damn HARD! All THANKS to that stupid , asshole bastard tuition teacher of mine. Thanks eh for your attitude yesterday. All your attitude really helps me in answering the question you know! I was struggling of course! All thanks to you i sure FAIL that paper! And i know it's true. You will be happy too kan ? Asshole.The only thing that brighten up my day today is friends. Thanks for being there ifa h, hana , mai . And thanks alot to Ms Chew for the chocolates! I really appreciated that. Ms chew gave me and ifah the chocolate because we both volunteered to do public speaking on Monday. That really makes my day.
And science common test tomorrow! Gosh , i have not even started on a single thing. Gonna do my revision now. & i feel much more better now cause i have voiced all out today.

toodles.