classic, xoxo

Damn , atlast i back home. Been out lately since 7.30am in the morning. Gosh. I need ample rest :/ Tomorrow would be out again! As early as 7am? Gawd. I'am not having enough rest nowdays. Pfft. Working as early as 7am everyday really sucks. I know iam at fault cause i asked for it. But please laah not as early as 7am pleasee? Haa. Today's trip to malaysia had been cancled. YAYNESS. If i were to go today , i pity my susan laa. Heee . I love you la bitch.

8 more days before coursework expires. I mean before the date due. Gosh , i have alot to catch up but iam slacking tough. I promised myself not to work during the holidays but i have lied to myself :/ Iam pretty disappointed tough. Well , would be catching up on my coursework perhaps tomorrow? Or friday ? On top of that i need help -.- major help . Haa. Skipped this part.

Oh yeaa , i told fahmi & susan i have moved on. For atlast eh? HAHA. Yea , i know it's kinda slow. Iam the type of person who take things slow & recover very slowly. Haa. Wound elaborate more. Gaa. Perhapes , i just love yesterday! lol . Thanks kelly for calling me up to work yst -.- . Some things made me realized yst. In another words , i have overcome my emotions. To be strong always and to take things kind off slowly. Yesterday proof it all. Yes , ofcourse he's back and i knew about it. Was supposed to be happy but nah , mood swings. Gawd , he is working yesterday and first impression , " Eh , dier uhh makin cute laah" but nothings comes in mind at all. Ahh , his and hers intentions are GREAT. Woah , want to jealous me infront of a huge crowd eh? LOL , didnt works for me. Told you that i have moved on and yes that my final dissicion bodo. Whatever i hear yst , as usual i put it to dead ear. Whatever you do yst , i pretend i never see anythink. And when i punch out , nothing goes on in my mind except that " i just want to goo home and rest" hehe . See , i'am proud of myself tough :] Good job nat. But , frankly speaking there alot of mixed feelings in me. I just wound express it her.

And , yeaa one more thing. If you were to apply for a job , your first intention is to work hard and make new friends and family right? But hell no. What iam experincing now is way more that what you call " WORKING " Eh hello people , you apply for a job to earn money right , but what for if you come here to work but your intentions are different? Like admiring more than 3 person in about a week? Wahlau , fame yourself in the mirror first before even thinking of suchs things. Gawd. What a life. And afterwich you decide to spread to the whole world just because of that one particular person. What the bloody Hell lah! And now , i think the whole store knew about it. Great job uh? Your mood changes depanding on his shift. When he is working , you would jump for joy wherelse when he is not , you would look moody. Gawd , pathetic sia. Iam not trying to be a kpo here but seriously, its attention grabing. It's grabbing everyone attention and iam kind off pissed you know. And , i did find out something else happens and it's kind off the same. Whats more? I am forever pissed. GRRRRRRR. But , whatever it is , i just put it to deaf ears. Do whatever you want bitch , and i don't care anymore. Look , like i said i have moved on and no use of me loving him anymore. What for right? Iam the stupid one not to move on earlier on but then some things made me realised duhh. Thats is why i wound fall in traps anymore. It better to become friends or lover rather than getting hoocked into relationship. The equal amount of trust must be there. And , yea now i really realised it and wound repeat my mistakes anymore. One last thing to say , do whatever you want be it infront of me . I don't give a fcuking care anymore shitz. Theres going to be a revenge behind all this drama. Sooner of later , you yourself would find out the truth. And , i REALLY really hope one fine day , you discover something. Something that would really shocked you and that would tickle me so much. So , take care friend and i hope that you realised. Nothing much for me to say now.

And lastly , before ending this looooong and boring post. ADIK DIRA , do take care of yourself in saudi aite? I will sure miss you alot dik. Hee . And , to dik feeza , if you are reading this , do tag afterthat okey? I love my adik feeza so2 much and i miss you sister! Hehe . And lastly , to my dearest gfs , i am missing you guys like sey. Meet up soon aite?

toodles.