classic, xoxo

Sorry for the loong drag of post. Was very very buzy this few days. Weekends & holidays were burnt as per normal. -.- *sighs

Friday
Arfah begged me to work. Fulfilled her wish and worked for 4hours. 6pm - 10pm. Oh yeaa , baby was at work too! & he wasn't late this time. Haa. Due to this , i skipped tuition today. Received tons of missed calls from tuition friends. Including tuition teacher who called my dad -.- They thought that i was playing truant again. What the hell laaa! After work , passed bby contact lense casing. Bby eyes getting red. Owh , poor thing. Apply some eyes drop ok bby?

Saturday
Worked mostly in the morning. Customers sucks , attitude face , and new sucker. Grr. Wound elaborate more. After work , waited for susan & bby break time. Headed to cavana to have their dinner. Sorry susan & bby cause i didnt not want to eat. I was full. I also don't really undersatnd myself. My last break was at 1.30pm and till 7.30pm iam still not hungry :/ Can't be blamed , can't it ? Bby knew something not right afterthat. Stupid me go and show bby a stupid attitude. Bby was pissed you see. I'am sorry bby. I did not know that this stupid attitude can lead to unequal trust anymore. :'[ Said goodbye Bby & susan. Off back home with brother.

Sunday
One of the Hell 11 Hour work day. First things in the morning , iam not late for work ^^ . Second thing , down crew , third thing , no customer in the morning but Hell alot in the evening. That explains clearly the situation on Sunday. Morning was like damn bored , but when i was about to punch out at 5pm , more and more customers strolled in. That dragged me to worked for 11 hours that day :0 From 9am in the morning till late 8pm at night. I admit that i was feeling gloomy and sicked when it had passed 7pm. My eyes became watery and hatred grew. Jealousy too. All i wanted was to go home. I can't stand the situation iam currently in. Bby , you just ignored me like iam a piece of shitz. Well , you supposed iam. Grr . Mood swings/ jealousy/hatred/ tired feeling grews. Outside i was showing you a fake smile , but inside , iam mourning in pain/ agony. Iam crying deep inside. Iam hurt deep down inside. I feel like fainting but i persevere.Patient is virtual Bby. You did not see it , but i did. I was patient and calmed during that 11 hours of working. Whatever happens that day , whatever i heard that day , i just put it to deaf ear. I pretend not to hear anything you said , i pretend that you were invisible. But all this lead to tears. I cried. With that stupid and sucky attitude i gave you earlier on. I just could not understand myself at times. I can be too emotional and depressed at times. I was counting on you to make a difference in me , but you gave it away :[ You gave up. You never tried to overcome your phobia. Well , i did bby. And i was hoping of something new. But still you gave it away :'[ . Yes , i was pretty hurt and disappointed. But deep down inside , i apologies. I realized my mistake. I knew what iam doing bby but still you don't give me a second chance. If i could rewind back time , i would certainly wish to be with you again. I really really sucks in relationship. :''[ I will never find the Mr Right for me. Perhapes , i just sucks right? Yea , i moved on but i still love you bby. I miss the time we spend together. I want to be with you bby. Urggsss! I just hate myself. I really sucks dont ya think so ? I feel like cutting myself. But i knew i wont. God , please help me :[[[[ Show me the right path. Urggggs! i cried and throw my emotions out to susan. Thanks susan for being there when i need you. And sorry for causing inconvenience to you. Sorry for everythink susan. I love you so muchh & i miss you! Please come back home. Everything goes haywire when you left for Thailand. I need you by my side girl . Sobbssss*

Monday
School , school and more school. Stupid. Ms Chew's new hair style rock the world man! Haha. No offense. It's cute la teacher. Homed by 4 plus cause helped ifah out with her painting.

Tuesday
Cabot school. ^^ Went cycling instead. I admit it that i was super super stressed and pissed. So it;s time for me to take a break. Meet man and his member at rc. Lend his bike and off to Pasir Ris park. Man tumpang ifah while a tumpang mai. Cycle , cycle to Pasir ris park. I admit it was tiring :/ I was exhausted when we reach the park. Slacked and when inside the swamp. It was drizzling by then. Ifah stubborned eh, the floor was damn slippery but she insist of cycling in the swamp. Haha. Observed many living creatures in there. I was wet from head to toe :/ But before that we cycled to the Red House. Wanted to smuggle inside but it started to drizzle and the gate was locked. So cycled back to pasirirs park. Had our lunch at Downtown East. Wanted to play bowling but tak jadi. Hmphh. They send me home ^^. I swear my body was aching like hell the very next day. Went home and dad told me that my school called. Haha. Stupid school laah. Do the house work ( like for the very first time! ) Haha and dozed off.

Wednesday
Cabot school again :/ Went to Ngee Ann poly instead. Try out some cool courses down there. But i swear i was like one dumb idiot down there. Haha. All of them who attended the course was from madrasah school! Guess what ? I am the only girl who does not wear tudung! Grr. The rest was like very alim and they wore tudung. I was the odd one out you see. And surprisingly they were all sec 3! I was stunned for moment. HAHA! I just follow with the flow -.- I admit it that i was lonely at first cause i don't even know any one of them. Sheesh. But then , i tried making friends :o We then were divided into our groups. I was in Live Sciences. I have no idea as to why i was in live sciences. Seriously , i was lost. I don;t know what is happening around me :/ But atlast i just follow with the flow , as i said. Ngee Ann poly was like damn Hell big okey? I hardly find my way down there. Sheesh. Luckily theres this student leaders to guide us. We went into the green house and into the lab to get our hands dirty. Woohoo! I potted some plants and bring them home :] Can see that i was anti-social l like duh! I hate my surroundings cause i was the odd one out. Okey , whatever! Class ended and off back home. Dropped us at White Sands. Took bus 359 and off to school. Hand up my report book and off back home. I swear my entire body is aching like hell okey? Seriously. And a BIG YAY cause today marks the end of tutorial and i missed 2 lessons -.-. And , susan i miss you laaahhhh! Atlast just now susan just beep me up and told me that she had just reached singapore! I was waiting for your arrival since morning okey? Haha. Can't wait to meet you up tomorrow! I love you Babeh! :] 2 more days to his departure :[
AND & PICUTRES!