classic, xoxo

43 more days to N Level & less than 10 days to Prelims.
Gawdd. How fast more can time flies.
Frankly , iam slacking. Damn , real slacking. I hate school. I don't why suddenly i have that kind of mindset. God , please help me. I'am in a dilemma. In serious dilemma.
Sometimes i wonder ; to STOP school and continue my working career OR to continue on my studies and achieve my goals. I know its never too late to do anything.
I seriously don't know why i have this kind of thinking. To stop school. It has never haunt me before. But as prelims and N levels are getting nearer, i feel like giving up. I rather work than study. I rather lose than win. Seriously , i don't know what up with my life. But as i reflect back , i think iam doing the wrong thing. I'am growing near to failure. But i would never let this happen. I don't want to disppoint others espcially my parents. I have to start working hard. Its never too late. I want success! I want a bright future. I want to gain back my confident and back to mugging. Thank God. He made me realized. Studying is much more important than working. My future is much more important. And that i realized. I want to make my teachers/parents proud. Yes , i can do it! And to working , iam sorry but i have to neglect it. Sorry managers if i MIA from work. I can't help it. I'am totally pissed with those irresponsible crews. I would only work once a week starting from this week. Seriously , iam sorry. I would go missing if you really need me. I can't help it now. Ima feeling more tense. Iam going to stop here now.
I would hereby thank this people whom has cheered m eup and showed me the positive side of life. Many thanks to my BRO , whome is always there to motive me. Giving me advices and such. Kak susan , my listening partner. Whome is always there for me when iam in sorrow. Bring me back to the positive side , super friendly and baekk . ily susan. And diyana , whome can predict my feelings when iam having problems or stress out. Thanks for the advice. And to my Gfs & friends whome were there for me too , never asked me to give up and being stupid to myself & not to waste time. I love each and everyone of you bits & pieces <3 Without you guys , i maybe would give up on my life. Teehee , kidding :)
I CAN DO IT & I WILL NEVER GIVE UP! DON'T QUIT CAUSE ITS JUST A WASTE OF TIME. 10 YEARS OF STUDYING & STILL COUNTING ^.^

toodles.