classic, xoxo

AH FCUK AH!
Feel betrayed by one, disappointed by the other.
Tak lamer kena bustard by one, not in good term with other.
Heran tak heran by one, mau mau tak mau by the other.
KARMA hitted me and i'am way too depressed!
Not one but TWO.
Both happening at the same time, same day.
I finally realised that i've changed but giving me another chance
to change back to the old me pun takleh ke?
I can leave one but not other.
Other mean alot to me but one don't.
One is flirting around at tagged while other
is moving on slowly.
One has gave up on me while the other has not but it is soon, i supposed.
But one sucks, not other.
I hate one but i love other.
Now i know how others guys felt when he is being betrayed/ bustard by their girlfriend.
Now i know how it felt to be this way.
Now i finally realised how hurting it can be.
It REALLY REALLY hurts alot okey not by one person only but by TWO.
Get that, TWO. T-w-o!
At the same TIME & MOMENT.
How would you feel?
When you love them so much till you get this in return.
But behind all this, there is a hidden explanation for both ONE & TWO.
H-I-D-D-E-N! Get that, HIDDEN!
I changed, yes i do but finally i find the cause of it!
I did! I did reflect it back & realized it.
It's only that i wanted to explain to the BOTH of you
but you GUYS just can't be BOTHERED anymore.
FINE than if it is up to your likings!
I can tell you guys why i've changed & maybe after i tell
ya guys, we would UNDERSTAND.
But then, without any explanations you guys
thinks NEGATIVELY & think about all sorts of fatuous reasons
and just LEAVE just like that?
yes i repeat, JUST LIKE THAT!
Aint a gentleman.
Fine if ya guys wanna leave but before that i just want ya guys
to listen to my explanations, thats all i asked for.
But finding no time or accusing me for using you wrongly
brings you & i to no where.
Look, it is just a slip not yet a fall.
I can still save this before anythink bad happened.
It is just a small mis-understanding between you-you & me.
I would really feel devasted if ya both just leave me just like that.
Oh please don't! :(
You guys are the BESTEST friends i've ever mit!
But loosing you guys just like that due to a small misunderstanding
would hurt even more compared to being heartbroken.
Seriously ):
I want you guys back. I love you. I may be harsh about what
i've written above but inside, it feels so hurt.
DEEPLY HURT. *sobssobs*
How i wish i could rewind back time!
& yes, this time,
IT'S MY FAULT THO! :(
i can't deny no more.
Please change cause iam. Cause ya know i want ya back. :(

toodles..