classic, xoxo

Apologies for not updating this blog. As usual, up with hectic schedules.
Yes, i've got lots to rant about. Like finally, i've got this chance to hit back on blogging.
Life been full of ups & downs too. Sometimes, i stood there alone and wonder. Flashback strikes when i was deleting messages from my inbox. Somehow, i did regret my fatuous acts. How i wish i could rewind back time and get back on the right track. I almost shed a tears of joy upon reminiscing back the memories we spend together. We were going on well and smoothly until a obstacle hit in between us. Frankly, i didnt expect history to repeats itselfs but than it did happened this time again, yes again. My mind could briefly recalled this kind of arguments happening in the past. I mean, its like every year, this kind of arguments would arose. I don't know what really the matter is but somehow both parties are in the wrong. We did admit our mistakes and yes we did apologise with each other but it would take MONTHS till we are back on the talking state. I really hate that part when it has to end that way. And when a new year awaits, things would turn back to normal.

We were doing fine earlier this year but it just came to a halt 3 months before midyear. I dont want history to repeat itself because iam sick and tired of it. I wonder when would be the perfect year that this kind of things would never happened to us. My mind breifly recalled that this kind of things did happened years back and it did happened this year again, which i dont even expect it to happened. Seems like everyear, we would be arguing between each other and it would takes months until we get back to our normal talking state. Frankly, i really hate this part right here. I seriously can't believe that you made desicion just like that. Similiar to last year, you heard the third party saying's and trust her thus history repeats itself. This time you heard the third party again and you came to a conclusion. Sometimes, i don't really understand you. You're stubborn yes you are and please dont deny that. I seen that for years and i can conclude. You follow your heart and your sarcasm and yes you're the type whome wouldent want to loose to the other party. You're treated like a fool being under others trap. Iam sorry to say that, but you are stupid enough not to think for your self. Instead, you let others think for you and you fall into their trap. Thanks for being too stupid and being fooled by others. And yes, my mind could clearly recall the past when you find yourself guilty and walking back to me. I did accept your apologies cause i know you would be back one day. The pain i felt, the agony really paid off for that year. And i am not really sure if this could happen this year. Yes, i know i was in the wrong but why don't you just give me the time to explain it all by MYSELF? and not by others. You wound know what others intention are. Till now, i realised my mistakes and i can admit it that iam in the wrong! But what have you heard from the others that really makes you hate me so much?! Acually, i know whats the answer to that questions. You dont even need to know how i get to know about it. I've got stalkers behind your back. And iam really blessed to have those peoples standing by my side still concerning about my own self. And you people know i do love ya lots <3 I really have no idea as to why i am writing about this again. It's over and i got over it already but then it started haunting me back again. What annoyed me the most is that your hatred towards me. Let me get this clear. Partly, iam in the wrong and there is this 40% that i knew i was not in the wrong. I dare to ADMIT it cause what you heard wasnt even the right facts. Hey, don't you remember me telling you that i've got stalkers behind your back. And i knew the whole story from A-Z. Don't be suprised huh. I really wish to continue this rants but i find it useless. Remember, i DO FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET. Patience is still virtual babeh. I know iam still rocking deep inside. Let me just end this with a sweet note. When you're in a mist of a argument, settle it in between yourself. How confident are you that by listening to others would get the right answer? Think about it. Until now, i know that the facts said wasnt right :) And yes, if it wasnt because of me, you wouldent have known them. I hate it but i have to say this. Iam sorry.

I'll do a proper update tomorrow.

toodles