 2010 on Thursday, December 31, 2009
, 6:21 PM Firstly i would like to wish you guys a HAPPY NEW YEAR! May this year, 2010 be blessed with happinesses, health & joy! Like some ordinary years, the routine is the same. Countdown would either be at workplace or at home. Mundane still. -__- Oh wells, many asked me to tagged along together with them to downtown but my answer to them is just simple; MALAS AH! Haha. And when they keep on bragging & bragging to me, i would just say again; sorry ah besok aku kerja pagy ah! Padahal-padahal. HAHA! Prolly, i'am super lazy to go and whats more? Downtown would be PACKED like ever! Trust me, the worst environment of them all! So staying at home, watching the tv live isint it a better alternative? Yeap i think so. Haha. So yesterday was working till late 11plus. Punched out and quickly rush back home because i want to catch the countdown live on teevee! Wahahaha! BUTT! To me this year countdown at marina was kind off merepek lah. Haha, kay wateva. And i don't know why today i was being so CLUMSY! Very CLUMSY i can say! Wahahaha. Firstly i keep on making the wrong drinks like hot choco i make cappuccino instead. (M) double choco i go and make large! Instead of milo powder i go and put chocolate powder! AYOOO! AND AND the most funny part is boarding the bus. I seriously thought that i have lost my ez-link!! There i go digging and digging in my bag for my ez-link card but to no avail! Lucky bro was there and he pass me a dollar for my bus fee. There i was worrying about where the hell i misplace my card when only it was in my wallet and i was holding on to it!! LOL? I chuckle to myself and the person next to me was like looking at me! HAHA! It was so hilarious you see! Just wasted my bro one buck for nothing when my card is in my wallet! *smack head!* I seriously don't know why i was soo clumsy yesterday! Haha! I guess i was too worn out due to the numerous number of customers i had earlier on. Haha. And work was fine. Ya'knw i made new friend(s) with a customer. Lol? And my bro was like, "dorang nak aper?" Me; "takda pape berbual je" Bro; "u kenal dorang?" Me; "tak siak! buat kawan ah. Haha!" Bro; " krg berbual mcm da kwn lamer seh!" Me; "LOL?! I just make friends with a stranger today. HAHA!" And bro gave me that pathetic face. Wahahaha. True what, at work must be friendly and cheerful right? Hehe. And i'am glad that i didnt bring along "my feeling of angry-ness" to work today. Can say i'am still pissed and annoyed of what had happened yesterday lah but still i try not to show the feeling at work. See! I'am trying to change for the better for a brand new year! I want to smile more at work! ((: And and boss told me that next year i would be attending the espresso class! YAYNESS! But go alone! SAD OR WHAT?! :( Hayaa nvm la. && my new year resolutions. One; Pass my O LEVELS with flying colours & get to the course and poly i wanted! :) Two; Be a good daughter & not a nuisance anymore =.= Three; Smile more at workk! :)) Four; Change for the better and be nice. :) Five; I WANT TO BECOME MORE STERN. (not all the time lah) Six; I don't want to be too LENIENT anymore cause only now i realize people are stepping over my head! (sad right!) Seven; More freedom cause i'am turning 18 next year! Woohoo! Eight; More cash! $ Nine; No more cold war in between friends. no more fighting yeaa. Ten; Be Frank. TADAAA! Done! But it's kinda crappy? HAHA. Cause i don't have the time to plan it out. It just comes right in my mind right now so i write lor. Haha. And yah one more issue that i'am really really disappointed in till NOW. All this just comes right from the heart. Let's be frank from now on aye? Ya'knw sometimes being nice is a big NO NO. I've started to realized it only back then. Am i being too lenient or being too kind hearted towards people? Come'on people tell me the truth. It's a really painful thing to know that you're being stepped over on the head when actually you're having a kind heart and wanting to help. But all this dreams & hopes just go down in the drain? Hmm, wasted. Not just that. Moments later (this is the worst part) you would be accused at and being dump apparently. Sad huh? Or worst still, people don't even appreciate your good deeds and worst still they would become more and more demanding! Fuck that. This is what actually had happened to me recently. Ya'knw i'am really really disappointed in you. How could you do this to me? You're taking advantage of me you know that? And worst still all the blamings, accusing, assumptions, humiliating all is POINTING AT ME, NOT YOU! And there i suffer again but i didnt get you involved. See how good am i being towards you but did you even realized that?! I try to take it slow but seriously deep down in my heart it hurts alot, yes it really do. *sobs. You on the other hand is trying to be arrogant towards me and ask me to give in and help you in this matter. How could i even help you any further when part of my trust towards you is GONE? I'am sorry but i can't. Now let's just say now i'am the one who is giving in and the bad name also goes to me. All ME ME ME! Yalah, who am i also right? Hmph. But thankfully the other party is being frank enough and had realized his mistakes. I really respect you for that thats why i'am willing to forgive you. And i want to apologize too for being harsh at time. You just have to understand my condition and the shits sometimes i'am facing. Thanks alot friend. And i'am writing this is not to humiliate anyone but you see i've too blog it all out so that i'd feel a little better and besides this is all the fact. You may not realize it now but sooner or later you will. Trust me. As a friend also, i want you to change for the better, pretty please? Sometime somehow i hate your ego-ness too. I'am really sorry but i have to be frank from now on. I don't want anymore misunderstanding happening inbetween us. And i'am also sorry but i have to be more stern towards you or besides towards anybody else. If i don't change for the better, i would lose. I wound be the old me anymore. (in terms of kindness) I don't wish people to step over my head anymore. I have enough. And i TRY to be nice to people whome i know i can trust and whome i believe would not take advantage of me. Let's just say i wound be too nice to strangers ANYMORE. Heart pain only. :/ So to summarize it all, i'am sorry if somehow my post hurts you. But whatever it is i'am trying to help you change thats all. No harsh feelings yea? All done. Now i feel much better. The post above? Is what i'am encountering recently. Sad right? But heck, new year new nat. :) And since i respect you guys, i don't even bother to write your name down here okay! I'am NOT that childish! Hmph. One loog and wordy post ever! toodles! |
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