 stress on Thursday, December 24, 2009
, 8:34 AM Ya'knw this is my sayang. ((: She never fails to put a smile on my face when i'am down. She would definitely be there when i need here. I'am so bless to have here by my side. ((: Not forgetting my other bbygirls. I kinda miss them. IFAH! NAZIA! MIMI! ;( I don't when i can have the chance to meet with them up. Infact, i miss my cliques! i miss my schoolmates! A gathering one day guys? Haish. Seems like everybody is up with hectic schedules and have yet the time to gather together as one. :( Haish. I hope everybody is doing great and in great health! ;) And oh yah, tuesday was a day out with sayang. It was unplanned actually but the whole entire day was awesome! ;D I did shop alot that day! I bought myself a new addidas watch, bags, jeans and it nearly cost me a bomb! ;X After shopping at bugis and searching for sister's birthday present, we trained down back to pasiris to attend fifi's chalet. It was drizzling when we arrived but still they managed to bbq the chickens! haha! So just slacked around and i don't why i feel so so lethargic at that period of time! My eyes feels like shutting down and my body feels so worn out! And i slept like a pig down there! Is it due to the lazy weather or what? I feel sooo weak as day pass by ;(( But overall my day was great! Thanks for everything dear! ((: ya'knw, i do love you but i just can't express it out yet! Shy ah. Haha! Ok done. It's christmas baby! The clock has pass midnight and i want to wish all my dear friends a MERRY CHRISTMAS! Have a jolly christmas! ;D And yaw, i'am also back from work. I been feeling super lethargic nowadays and my body is feeling uper weak! ;( I'll either get restless for no fcukin' reason or i'll either emo one corner. ;/ Let's just say I'AM STRESS OUT WITH EVERYTHING THAT IS HAPPENING IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE HOUSE! Fcuking STRESS out! ARGS! I don't get my full hours of sleep like i usually do! I don't get my fcukin' FREEDOM! I don't get what i usually get last time! Infact everything just sucks! No wonder i've been encountering minor headaches attacks every now and then (when i don't usually encounter that!) And due to my disturbance in my sleep, my body is getting weaker and weaker and eventually i'll fall ill any time from now! GRRRS! >;( And all this just equals to S-T-R-E-S-S! Sometimes i feel like being alone and having some breeze outside or even not to go home? Geez! I don't why my mind linger to that extend! Hmph hmph! ;( And i'am fcukin' disappointed in myself for goodness sake! Firstly, i planned to one; Paint my room with splashing good colours but it's NOT DONE. two; Pail up all my junk notes and recycled them and clear up the mess in my room but yet it's NOT DONE. three; Pamper myself with treatments but it's NOT DONE. four; Meet up with my bbyG's and it's NOT DONE. five; brush up on my ENGLISH LANGUAGE but it's NOT DONE! ( even tho o's is over!) My english is getting from bad to worst! six; Buy abg a birthday present and it's NOT DONE! seven; Register for open house etc and it's NOT DONE! Worst still the date due is overr! sobs! ;( eight; Have an outing with friends and it's NOT DONE! nine; Have a 2010 resolutions but it's NOT DONE! ten; enjoy life BUTTT IT'S NOT DONE! See! How dejected can i feel? Everythings planned out neatly but NOTHING IS DONE! Sobs! Super disappointed with myself. Hmph hmph. And due to this it kinda affects my mood at work. Haish. I don't why yesterday i was being rude to some people at work, rebellious towards customers. I'am so BADD! ;( I just want things at home to be like last time. Haishh. Only my parents & brother understands me. Thanked god. Currently the time now is 1:30AM and yet i'am asleep. I'll just think that now is the right time to voice it all out here so that i'll feel a little better, i hope so. I'am working later at 1pm and i don't feel like attending work today due to body weaknesses. ;( I'am up with a sore throat and a fcukin' obvious eye bags! I kept sneezing when i get home! I think iam going to fall ill! :( But i'll just have to drag myself to work cause it's christmas baby and it's double payy! Maybe if my condition gets worst i'll visit the doctor on sunday. ;/ Hope nothing bad happens. And another thing that has been bothering me and hauting me in my dreams is the release of o level results! I've been getting weird dreams! Args! I can feel butterflies in my stomach even when iam typing this! Haish.. I'am so petrified can? D; I really really hope that everything would be alright and get the grades that i'am aiming for! Amin. And it's very rare for me to type down this looong even pass midnight. I just miss blogging and of course i wanna blog it all out so i feel better! So now i think i wanna get some rest so i'll wake up fresh later! I'll blog more if i'am free yaw! Tcre readers and i definitely miss all my friends! ;( Wish me a great health and to recover faster hor! ;) toodles! |
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